The chosen path

First and foremost, to my blog's arden fan, I apologize for the 'silence'. It was genuinely untentional. My streamyx line was down ever since my last post. Yes, it has been about two months now. Thinking that I'm the ex-staff I could get the special attention or at least some assitance to fix this problem ASAP but to no avail. It's dissapointing, beyond words! I'm now going backward as in reverting to the dial-up technology. :(

Besides, my streamyx problem, life has been quite challenging too. The career path that I've chosen doesn't seem so easy to chart. It's unpredictable and at times depressing. After a long thought, I concluded that I felt that way because I was not well prepared before deciding to take this path. I do not regret my decision. In fact, I'm much more prepared now to go thru it and make it a successful and glorious path. It takes a lot of hardwork and sacrifices. I'll give my 200%.

As I was reading, I came across this inspiring quote. It inspired me and I hope it inspires you too.

" The golden opportunity you are seeking is in yourself. It is not your environment; it is not in your luck or chance, or in the help of others; it is in yourself alone"

I'm so clear now of what I want to do. I've taken the first major step. Having a great partner and supportive friends and family are a blessing and has made this chosen path much brighter and purposeful.

Wish me luck!

A day in the life..

Considering a career change? Here's something that I'd like to share.

Companies, to improve efficiency and profitability, hire management consultants to identify problems and recommend solutions. Management consultants have to be accomplished analysts, attentive listeners, and firm but tactful communicators. They are thinkers and problem solvers who know how to convince others that change is needed. Though even starting management consultants make good money (and income rises considerably with experience), surveys indicate that candidates must be willing to sacrifice time from their personal lives. Consultants must get used to leaving home on Sunday for a business trip and not returning until Thursday or Friday. Satisfaction is generally high in this career, despite its demands.

No specific academic requirements exist for management consultants, but require at least a college degree in a related field. An Ivy League education is a distinct plus, and many employers look extremely favorably on MBAs, which are necessary requirements for upward mobility in this profession. Very little guidance is available, so candidates should demonstrate academic, work, or entrepreneurial experience that shows them to be self-starters and interested in excellence in whatever they do. Experience is always valuable, but professional certification—granted by the Institute of Management Consultants USA, Inc. only after rigorous review—is often more important when it comes to getting hired and promoted, especially at smaller firms. The majority of management consultants are self-employed and work in firms of 10 or fewer people, but the highest-paid ones usually do a significant stint at a large company, making professional contacts and building a solid reputation.

A new beginning

Did i tell you that I'm now doing consultancy? It has just been a month. Something that I've always wanted to do ever since I was exposed to it sometime two years ago. My days have changed from entertaining clients, motivating sales team, doing reports to travelling and doing research and analysis...at least for now. I'm still new in this line and there are so much to learn. It's challenging, demanding but can be very satisfying. Wish me luck!

ming's birthday

My bestest friend turns 29 today and it's my fourth time celebrating it with him. Hope there will be many many many many more to come! Happy birthday Ming Ming. It has been great having you as a friend!May you always be Happy, Healty, Wealthy and Wise!

Dah 29, Mejar pun dah dapat. Bila nak kawin ni? Hehehe

p/s: Ming's birthday pics 2003,2005&2006. 2004 missing :)

Got up with tight chest and mild headache. So decided to work from home. Rested till about noon then went to work. Had discussion and prepare for the next KK trip. Looking forward to it. No traffic. Good seafood. Slow paced life. Beautiful beaches. Breathtaking sunset view. Delicious roti kawin. Great dive sites . Nice gold course..

I feel so lonely today despite the fact that I just had a great dinner with a bunch of friends. Guess, I can't deny the fact that everyone needs 'someone', no matter how much I've tried convincing myself that I don't need one. I'm grateful with what I have; good family, good life, good job, bunch of great friends, but what's missing is that 'someone'. I long for a real romantic relationship where I can love that someone openly and passionately.

i'm back..

Wow! I've not been updating my blog for the past one month...ever since i quit.
I'm back guys! Let's see what has happened since 25/8/06.

26/8/06 Still working
10/9/06 Last day working
11/9/06 Join company X (hehe..)

I guess nothing much has changed except that I'm now working again somewhere else and have been a frequent flier of Air Asia. Life's been better. No more sleepless nites. Less stress. More focus. More reading. More travelling. More work. Happier. Less bosses. Less crap!High risk. High return. Highly motivated!

In a nutshell, I'm glad I did what I did! Just have to work harder and be really good at what I'm doing now!

Bye bye TM

I tendered by resignation today! It was a crazy decision! Never that I thought that I would actually leave this company especially after working for 7 years! No doubt I talked about it everyday but I never knew I have the guts to do it! Not many people find it a wise decision but it is my decision. I know grass is not always greener over there but I'm gonna try. I can't look back and regret it. I have to move forward and work extra hard to ensure it is the right decision! I wanna live the life of my dream! Wish me luck!

Happy Anniversary

Last year on this date I met my Guardian Angel. It was quite a meeting, as I had to face a a few furious senior management of his company to sort things out about TM services. Being new in the division and unprepared for the meeting, all I could affort to do was apologize and promise that things will be ok. Despite the tense meeting, my Guardian Angel just sat there smiling and looking very calm. It somewhat caught my eyes and my heart :) Never that I thought that the meeting was a beginning of a very beautiful friendship. Thank you.

The best wonton mee in town

Ming brought me to the best wonton mee stall tonite. I had bad experience with wonton mee before so i was not really excited at first, but this one my friend was really good and i recommend everyone to go. Yum yum! Not sure where it is exactly but it's somewhere near Loke Yew.

p/s: Happy birthday mena!

That's it!

I totally lost my patience today and I'm finally out of this in-out relationship that i've been in for the past 7 years. Goodbye my soulmate. I guess my soul wanna be alone for a while. It's so sad. Something that used to be so beautiful can be so bitter.

Happy Birthday to me

I turned 29 today. Thank you to my family and friends who have made today such a special day for me!

Happy Birthday Abah..

I miss you..

WAG?

I'm writing in response to Ming's blog on this matter. You got to check it our first to understand my comment. WAG? Interesting ! Honestly, I love the idea of wearing designer apparel, top to toe and cheering for 'my man' running around the football field in Germany to score a goal for his country.Gosh! That is hot! I guess I'm just tired being in this corporate world. Desperately need a break or a change of profession or better still get my own Dato' K and just sit back and relax :)

Happy Birthday Umi

I love you!

Are we hazardous?

germany vs argentina

"Germany advance to the 2006 FIFA World Cup™ semi-finals after triumphing 4-2 over Argentina in a penalty shoot-out following a tight, tense match in Berlin’s Olympiastadion on Friday, 30 July 2006 that had ended locked at 1-1. "

YES! Bravo Germany! Honestly, it was the first game that I watched from start to end. Really watched i mean.. basically, praying, screaming, sms-ing, betting.. gosh.. it's amazing what football does to mankind.. for someone like me, who watches only for the sake of betting (hehe..)it felt good. Made me nervous and made my heart raced. Healthy but Crazy! A few great things about this match:

1- The cute Germany coach (gosh! i'm in love with u, Klinsmann)
2- The 'i-don't-take-crap' referree (u should see how he ignored those jokers)
3- The cheeky looking ODonkor
4- Again, the cute Germany coach!

germany vs argentina

it's 1/2 time.. still 0-0

listening to soothing thai song ( courtesy of seademon ), chatting with friends and surfing internet for spaghetti recipes..

germany vs argentina

go germany go!

fantasy vs reality

fantasy is what people want but reality is what people need..

it's been a long time since i last updated my blog.. have been really busy with a lot of things especially work and all the drama in my life.. whatever it is, life is great.. just a bit pushy sometimes.. when the going gets tough, the tough gets going!

Tioman

just got back from a great dive trip at tioman.. it was awesome! thanks to everyone who has made the trip a great one - especially mocha, my 'buddy from heaven', snafu for organizing the trip, seademon for watching over me, dennis, kit, mervin, evo and everyone who was there..

Kasih Tak Sampai

Artist : Padi
Song : Kasih Tak Sampai
Album : Sesuatu Yang Tertunda

Indah... terasa indah
Bila kita terbuai dalam alunan cinta
Sedapat mungkin terciptakan rasa
Keinginan saling memiliki
Namun bila... itu semua
Dapat terwujud dalam satu ikatan cinta
Tak semudah seperti yang pernah terbayang
Menyatukan perasaan kita
Chorus:
Tetaplah menjadi bintang di langit
Agar cinta kita akan abadi
Biarlah sinarmu tetap menyinari alam ini
Agar menjadi saksi cinta kita
Berdua... Berdua...
Sudah... terlambat sudah
Kini semua harus berakhir
Mungkin inilah jalan yang terbaik
Dan kita mesti relakan kenyataan ini

Menjadi saksi kita berdua...

Menanti Sebuah Jawaban

Artist : Padi
Song : Menanti Sebuah Jawaban
Album : Padi

Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
Seiring jejak kakiku bergeter
Aku tak terpakut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
Namun kau masih terdiam membisu
Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan ‘tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban ‘tuk memilikimu
Betapa piluhnya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tahu isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

Should I give it another chance?

had a heart to heart talk.. both of us have to sacrifice something to make this work.. he has to convert and i have to drop everthing i have here and start all over again over there.. quit my job, leave my family, my friends.. might have to give up golf and diving too.. is this what it takes to be together? is it worth doing? how sure am i of this? can i do it? will this work? gosh!

spending time with the love one can be very fulfilling.. it makes you happy, energetic, feeling loved, wanted, needed and important.. it makes life more meaningful.. it brings the best in you..

on the other hand, the feeling can be temporary, not lasting when you have to give up yourself to suit the other person's expectation..

another day together.. things gets much better.. but i'm still not feeling it.. where has the feeling gone.. it has been nine years of off-on relationship.. i love the friendship.. something that i really treasure.. but being together legally..? is it something that i still wanna do?

had a good time but feeling very disconnected, emotionally.. have i lost it?

My soulmate came and visit me today after more than a one and a half year of silent treatment.. Absent does make the heart grow fonder.. but too long.. it makes you an absent minded person as far as the feeling is concern.. i'm not sure what i'm feeling right now.. happy, of course.. but at the same time, confused..

Happy Mother's Day

Dear Mummy & Umi

Love you with all my heart.. You are my everything.. Thank you

Happy Birthday my dear..
May you find love and happiness in everything you do..

Akim's birthday! Happy Birthday little bro.. May you get rich quickly and give me lotsa money..:)

I stole this pic from Ming's blog.. :) The two handsome gentlemen here are Raj and Ming, my coursemate in UTM and that 'cute girl' is of course, me.. stop puking.. It was taken during my recent visit to DSA. It was a very interesting exhibition and something really new to me. Not directly related to what I'm doing but I get to learn something and meet a lot of people from all over the world. The reason why I was there is because I was trying to expand my 'network' and eventually get more sales for the company that i'm so loyal to. As seasonal as I may seem (especially when comes to man), 7 years is indeed a long 'season'. Never thought i would stay this long as i grumble everyday about how stupid this company is and how badly I want to leave. I think I should stop doing that. Make the most out of it. Do my very best and give my 100%. I'll get somewhere. Chia Yew!

i played golf yesterday with my best friend and today i played again with my guardian angel & junior.. had fun but i screwed up most of the time.. i'm so tanned and my game sucks! gosh! i badly need to regrip and see my pro..

later today, i went to the new place to clean it.. my bro help me out with the cleaning since he stays at the same place.. took this opportunity to visit his place, which i've never done before (gosh! i'm such a bad sister).. it looks very neat .. as expected.. he's good at keeping the house clean and tidy.. he got that from my dad.. dad's fav line " keep it speak and span".. i miss u daddy!

i decided to stay on my own today.. not sure if it's the right thing to do but there's always the first time for everything and sometimes change is good for us.. this is the first time i'm gonnado it and i'm sure this change is good for me.. i'm looking forward to this new 'life'.. wish me luck..

my soulmate..

Soulmate is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep affinity, friendship, love, strong intimacy, or compatibility. A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul - thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join.

i don't feel too good today.. emotionally unstable.. get to get myself back on track.. help me God!

Here's my little sister.. our babydoll..
Hei girl! We miss you dearly.. come back quickly..

When 24 hours a day are just not enough..

When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the
entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things--your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favourite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else---the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out

to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may! seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

Eddie

I received an email from Eddie today, a Coaching Consultant with the Anthony Robbins Companies. Yap! Anthony Robbins.!! Actually, I think sometime last month i felt so down and frustrated with my life that I decided to look for help/guidance/inspiration. Books have always played that part for me and Anthony Robbins books are so far the best I've ever read. So, that night, feeling too lazy to read, I decided to go to his websites instead. It quite inspiring, somewhat giving me some hope. After about an hour reading and browsing the website, i found a 'Free Coaching Strategy Session'. Since it's free (being typical m'sian), I quickly click on it and it led me to an email composer. So, I wrote " Dear Consultant, I'm sick of my life! Please help" and I've totally forgotten that I've sent that email until today when I received a reply with a phone number to call to setup an appointment. I didn't know what have gotten into me that I straight away picked up my phone and called Eddie (who's in San Diego). I was expecting a 'robot' or interactive answering device to answer my call, only to find out that it was a handsome 'real' man (from his voice, i mean). He sounded very friendly and jovial. We chatted for a while and made an appointment to start the coaching session but I've to tell him what I wanna first. My quick response was, I can't even decide what I wanna eat, how can I decide what I want in life..and this had led us to a length conversation which was supposed to happen tomorrow. He asked me what I wanna eat for breakfast tomorrow and I said I don't know ( my standard answer besides 'anything'.. ever since I am able to talk). He told me to get a rubber band immediately, put it around my wrist, pull and release it. Oouttchh! It hurts. So he said, everytime I said I don't know, I've to do that. A punishment for not deciding what I want. Gosh! That's painful! A few minutes later, again, he asked me what I wanna eat the whole day tomorrow. Quickly I responded, " Cereal, bowl of fresh fruits and juice for breakfast, turkey ham sandwich for lunch and soup for dinner".. Man! That was the first time, I've actually decided what to eat.. major decision made! I feel good and I like it! So for those of you out there, start deciding what you want now!

come walk with me..

today in history..i cooked dinner and it was asam pedas ikan pari, udang goreng kunyit and kailan.. hehe.. it was indeed harder than studying for the artifical intelligent exam but i did it :) anyone need a recipe? hehehe

i went to work halfway today.. felt so sick with everything that somewhat triggered my asthma.. headed to the clinic.. got a day off.. now doing my work from home.. gosh! what's wrong with me????

Congratulations..

to Ming Ming on his graduation (MEng).. You made it! So proud of you, dear! Let's celebrate!

get well soon

My Dear Guardian Angel,

Hope you are feeling much better now.

Lotsa luv,
Me

It's 3.40am now. I'm still wide awake though my mind is so tired. Couldn't really get myself to sleep so I decided to do some work. Life's been really hectic of late. Work is too demanding. Gotta be strong! When the going gets tough, the tough gets going!! Chia yew!

find your life passion, then make it your job

It's 2.49am and I'm still trying to finish some work. While doing so, I encountered a very interesting article. Something that I need at this point of time - Inspiration. The title " Find your life passion, then make it your job". What do you think of this? How many of us actually live with passion and better still, make a living out of that? Check this article out. It might inspire you..

http://www.miami.com/mld/miamiherald/news/local/states/florida/counties/miami-dade/cities_neighborhoods/northcentral/14120721.htm

Jaja, Mummy & Me..

Jaja flew to UK on Friday so Mummy came over and stayed with me. It was supposed to be an active weekend. Planned to go jalan jalan but both of us were down with flu. It was a blessing in disguise as I get to spend more private time with Mummy despite having to forgo our jalan jalan plan. We spent time chatting, watching DVD, cooking and gossipping, things we have not done together for a very long time. I guess everything happens for a good reason.. sometimes it takes us a little more time to realize it. It's sunday and Mummy has gone home. Here I am, in my room, all alone.

To Jaja: I'm so proud of you! (Pic: Me & Jaja, 22 years back:))
To Mummy: I love you and I thank God for you everyday!

A great weekend

It was a great weekend for me. Got to most of the things that I wanted to. Had my favourite dimsum breakfast and homecook dinner on Saturday. Went to play golf for the first time on Sunday. Didnt't do so well as expected but I had a great time. Thank you Ming Ming.

Happy Valentine's Day

I love you

special dedication on valentine's day..

life's about learning..

Today, I decided to take up golf, which i've postponed for more than a year. Mr Taurus got me a set (haven't paid you for that yet..hehe) and Ming introduced me to a PRO. Thanks for all the encouragement guys! I really hope I will do this whole-heartedly and complete the course and finally be able to play with you and have a good time!

I believe life is about learning. Wish I could learn everything.. one thing at a time.. to keep me going and stay young!

Late new year

Hi! Happy new year! Guess, I'm the last person to wish you happy new year. I have been really really busy. Guess where I am now? Parked right infront of my office lobby to get connected to the wireless LAN at 10pm on Eid Mubarak. How pathetic can I be? That's ok! I'm used to this kind of life and I'm not complaining. Actually, was trying to send my report from home but the dial up connection sucks. Couldn't even send one email out! It's time for broadband!

Since I've successfully completed my report, and it's not too late, I might as well take this opportunity to update my blog. I've so much to share but i just couldnt't compose it now but let me try... it's new year, new beginning, new resolutions.. this year I'm just gonna make more money, make more friends, make more dives and make more love! hehe.. in short.. make more of everything and make the most out of everything i've got! wish me luck!