had a heart to heart talk.. both of us have to sacrifice something to make this work.. he has to convert and i have to drop everthing i have here and start all over again over there.. quit my job, leave my family, my friends.. might have to give up golf and diving too.. is this what it takes to be together? is it worth doing? how sure am i of this? can i do it? will this work? gosh!

spending time with the love one can be very fulfilling.. it makes you happy, energetic, feeling loved, wanted, needed and important.. it makes life more meaningful.. it brings the best in you..

on the other hand, the feeling can be temporary, not lasting when you have to give up yourself to suit the other person's expectation..

another day together.. things gets much better.. but i'm still not feeling it.. where has the feeling gone.. it has been nine years of off-on relationship.. i love the friendship.. something that i really treasure.. but being together legally..? is it something that i still wanna do?

had a good time but feeling very disconnected, emotionally.. have i lost it?

My soulmate came and visit me today after more than a one and a half year of silent treatment.. Absent does make the heart grow fonder.. but too long.. it makes you an absent minded person as far as the feeling is concern.. i'm not sure what i'm feeling right now.. happy, of course.. but at the same time, confused..

Happy Mother's Day

Dear Mummy & Umi

Love you with all my heart.. You are my everything.. Thank you

Happy Birthday my dear..
May you find love and happiness in everything you do..

Akim's birthday! Happy Birthday little bro.. May you get rich quickly and give me lotsa money..:)

I stole this pic from Ming's blog.. :) The two handsome gentlemen here are Raj and Ming, my coursemate in UTM and that 'cute girl' is of course, me.. stop puking.. It was taken during my recent visit to DSA. It was a very interesting exhibition and something really new to me. Not directly related to what I'm doing but I get to learn something and meet a lot of people from all over the world. The reason why I was there is because I was trying to expand my 'network' and eventually get more sales for the company that i'm so loyal to. As seasonal as I may seem (especially when comes to man), 7 years is indeed a long 'season'. Never thought i would stay this long as i grumble everyday about how stupid this company is and how badly I want to leave. I think I should stop doing that. Make the most out of it. Do my very best and give my 100%. I'll get somewhere. Chia Yew!

i played golf yesterday with my best friend and today i played again with my guardian angel & junior.. had fun but i screwed up most of the time.. i'm so tanned and my game sucks! gosh! i badly need to regrip and see my pro..

later today, i went to the new place to clean it.. my bro help me out with the cleaning since he stays at the same place.. took this opportunity to visit his place, which i've never done before (gosh! i'm such a bad sister).. it looks very neat .. as expected.. he's good at keeping the house clean and tidy.. he got that from my dad.. dad's fav line " keep it speak and span".. i miss u daddy!