i decided to stay on my own today.. not sure if it's the right thing to do but there's always the first time for everything and sometimes change is good for us.. this is the first time i'm gonnado it and i'm sure this change is good for me.. i'm looking forward to this new 'life'.. wish me luck..

my soulmate..

Soulmate is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep affinity, friendship, love, strong intimacy, or compatibility. A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul - thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join.

i don't feel too good today.. emotionally unstable.. get to get myself back on track.. help me God!

Here's my little sister.. our babydoll..
Hei girl! We miss you dearly.. come back quickly..

When 24 hours a day are just not enough..

When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the
entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things--your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favourite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else---the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out

to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may! seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

Eddie

I received an email from Eddie today, a Coaching Consultant with the Anthony Robbins Companies. Yap! Anthony Robbins.!! Actually, I think sometime last month i felt so down and frustrated with my life that I decided to look for help/guidance/inspiration. Books have always played that part for me and Anthony Robbins books are so far the best I've ever read. So, that night, feeling too lazy to read, I decided to go to his websites instead. It quite inspiring, somewhat giving me some hope. After about an hour reading and browsing the website, i found a 'Free Coaching Strategy Session'. Since it's free (being typical m'sian), I quickly click on it and it led me to an email composer. So, I wrote " Dear Consultant, I'm sick of my life! Please help" and I've totally forgotten that I've sent that email until today when I received a reply with a phone number to call to setup an appointment. I didn't know what have gotten into me that I straight away picked up my phone and called Eddie (who's in San Diego). I was expecting a 'robot' or interactive answering device to answer my call, only to find out that it was a handsome 'real' man (from his voice, i mean). He sounded very friendly and jovial. We chatted for a while and made an appointment to start the coaching session but I've to tell him what I wanna first. My quick response was, I can't even decide what I wanna eat, how can I decide what I want in life..and this had led us to a length conversation which was supposed to happen tomorrow. He asked me what I wanna eat for breakfast tomorrow and I said I don't know ( my standard answer besides 'anything'.. ever since I am able to talk). He told me to get a rubber band immediately, put it around my wrist, pull and release it. Oouttchh! It hurts. So he said, everytime I said I don't know, I've to do that. A punishment for not deciding what I want. Gosh! That's painful! A few minutes later, again, he asked me what I wanna eat the whole day tomorrow. Quickly I responded, " Cereal, bowl of fresh fruits and juice for breakfast, turkey ham sandwich for lunch and soup for dinner".. Man! That was the first time, I've actually decided what to eat.. major decision made! I feel good and I like it! So for those of you out there, start deciding what you want now!

come walk with me..

today in history..i cooked dinner and it was asam pedas ikan pari, udang goreng kunyit and kailan.. hehe.. it was indeed harder than studying for the artifical intelligent exam but i did it :) anyone need a recipe? hehehe

i went to work halfway today.. felt so sick with everything that somewhat triggered my asthma.. headed to the clinic.. got a day off.. now doing my work from home.. gosh! what's wrong with me????