The love we give away is the only love we keep

Kaulah segalanya...

Kau merubah segala,
Cinta yang ku dahaga,
Kehadiran dirimu menyinarikan semula hatiku,
Kaulah segalanya,
yang menyinar hidupku, kasih
Hanya satunya yang ku cintai

Hulur tanganmu kasih,
sambut cintaku,
jangan tinggalkan aku seorang diri
tak sanggup lagi dilukai

Maafkan aku, jika salahku,
Peristiwa yang pernah ku alami dulu
Aku tahu, betapa pahit mu,
menerima sejarah hidupku

Kaulah segalanya,
yang menyinar hidupku, kasih
Hanya satunya yang ku cintai

Sambutlah cintaku
Jangan kau pergi dari sisiku
Cintaku padamu ikhlas sejati

Cintaku padamu, ikhlas sejati

love's giving

love is patient and kind;
it is not jealous or conceited or proud;
love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable;
love does not keep a record of wrongs;
love is not happy with evil but is happy with truth;
love never gives up and its faith, hope and patience never fail.

Mungkin..

Biarkanlah saja diriku sendirian tanpamu
Biarkanlah saja diriku sepi tanpa kata
Bukan maksud untuk membisu
Sepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian

Mungkinkan bersama
Dua jiwa ini
Dalam mencari cinta sejati(nan suci)
Mungkinkah segala derita di jiwa
Akan terubat jua akhirnya

Biarkanlah saja diriku
Sendirian tanpamu
Terpisahnya kita kerana
Mengejar impian

Hanya satu pintaku
Sabarlah menanti
Ku kan pulang bersama cinta

love, lust & marriage

HOW TO DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN LOVE, LUST AND MARRIAGE...


LOVE when your eyes meet across a crowded room
LUST when your tongues meet across a crowded room
MARRIAGE when your belt won't meet around your waist, and you don't care

LOVE when intercourse is called making love
LUST all other times
MARRIAGE what's intercourse?

LOVE when you argue over how many children to have
LUST When you argue over who gets the wet spot
MARRIAGE when you argue over money

LOVE when you share everything you own
LUST when you think twice about giving your partner bus money
MARRIAGE when the bank owns everything

LOVE when it doesn't matter if you don't climax
LUST when the relationship is over if you don't climax
MARRIAGE what's a climax?

LOVE when you phone each other just to say "Hi"
LUST when you phone each other just to organize sex
MARRIAGE when you phone each other to find out what time your son's game starts

LOVE when you write poems about your partner
LUST when all you write is your phone number
MARRIAGE when all you write are check's

LOVE when you show concern for your partners' feelings
LUST when you couldn't give a rip
MARRIAGE when your only concern is what's on TV

LOVE when your farewell is "I love you darling"
LUST when your farewell is "So, same time next week?"
MARRIAGE when your farewell is silent

LOVE when you are proud to be seen in public with your partner
LUST when you only ever see each other in the bedroom
MARRIAGE when you never see each other awake

LOVE when your heart flutters every time you see them
LUST when your groin twitches every time you see them
MARRIAGE when your wallet empties every time you see them

LOVE when nobody else matters
LUST when nobody else knows
MARRIAGE when everybody else matters and you don't care who knows

LOVE when all the songs on the radio describe exactly how you feel
LUST when it's just the same mushy old crap
MARRIAGE when you never listen to music

LOVE when breaking up is something you try not to think about
LUST when staying together is something you try not to think about
MARRIAGE when just getting through today is your only thought

LOVE when you're interested in everything your partner does
LUST when you're only interested in one thing
MARRIAGE when you're not interested in what your partner does and the one thing you're interested in is your golf score

Nine Ways to Tell if Your Love Is Real

How do you know if you are in a lasting relationship? Here's what the expert says:

1-You feel good. A good relationship makes you feel good about yourself.

2-You look forward to spending time with your partner. You don't need to be with other people or go to events to avoid being alone together. You enjoy spending quality time together even when it's quiet.

3-You respect your partner. You hear yourself bragging about your partner. If you find that you're always talking about yourself, you're not focused on your partner or the relationship.

4-You're interested in what your partner thinks. You ask your partner's opinion about issues that are important to you. It's OK if he or she disagrees with you.

5-You accept your partner's quirks. Everyone has them. Even you! If your partner's quirks are endearing or tolerable, you're in good shape. If they really bother you, you should look more closely at the relationship.

6-You're able to work through your problems. It's natural to have some bumps in the relationship road to true bliss. People in healthy relationships see disagreements as a chance to learn more about their partner. However, if you're creating problems, or if you think every fight is the "big one" leading to a breakup, you should probably rethink your relationship.

7-You feel safe. You're not afraid of losing your partner.

8-You can't explain why you're together. Many people coordinate their lives so that they have to be together. But ask yourself if you're together because you truly want to be. If the answer is "yes," then you'll probably stay together. If it's "no," you're bound to have problems — if you haven't already.

9-You don't compare your partner to others. There will always be someone more beautiful, smarter or more athletic than your partner, but you don't care because you only want to be with him or her

Everybody needs a ‘Stanford’!

If you are a big fan of 'Sex and The City', you would understand perfectly what i mean but if you don't, just 'google' it. You'll get the answer. I'm writing about this because i happen to have a stanford! and i love him, a lot! 10 things why i love my ‘standford’:

1- i can say i love you anytime and everytime without feeling scared of the reply or waiting for him to say i love you too coz he'll definitely say it and we both know what it means
2- he's completely honest with you
3- he's just a phone call away although he's an ocean far away (specifically my case)
4- u can take him anywhere and be your date without having to explain to people that he's not your boyfriend coz he doesn’t mind if people think so
5- he has good sense of dressing, he loves shopping with u and he's very observant
6- you can talk about your past, present and future relationship for hours without him falling asleep
7- he's emotional, he’s sensitive and at the same time he's a man!
8- we can spend hours chit chatting and having our ice blended cappucino at starbucks while checking out cute guys... i guess we have the same taste for man
9- he's so ‘happening’
10- he is who he is.. he's real!


By the way, there are 4 great men in my life: my dad, my bestest friend (my everything), my ‘stanford’ and my on-off boyfriend. All of them are special, very special and they mean the world to me. Why have one man when you can have all the 4 of them!

AOWD

I’m officially an Advanced Open Water Diver. Got my ‘certificate' today. Yahoo!! Never thought I could do it. Million thanks to my buddy, Ming and my instructor, Mej Kee! You made my dream come true!

Little Angel

Tomorrow is the Eid Mubarak. Everyone’s back today and the best thing is we have a new comer this year, Aniq.Welcome to the SMF’s family, little angel! Umi loves you!

First Love...

A beautiful song for a beautiful person..


Artist: Utada Hikaru
Song: First Love

Saigo no kisu wa ka ba tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni irun darou
Dare wo omotterun darou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love songu
Atarashii uta utaeru made

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki dasouto shiteru
Wasuretakunai kotobakari

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naite iru
Anatawo omotterun darou

You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love love song
Now and forever...

underwater wedding

to kit and mervyn,

congratulations.. the wedding was beautiful..

and so is the vows...

"I,take you, to be my partner in life and my one true love
I will cherish our friendship and love you today, tomorrow, and forever
I will trust you and honor youI will laugh with you and cry with you
I will love you faithfully
Through the best and the worst
Through the difficult and the easy
What may come I will always be there
As I have given you my hand to hold
So I give you my life to keep
So help me God"

for a friend..

If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you,
And share with you its beauty
On the days you're feeling blue

If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own,
A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone

If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea,
But all these things I'm finding
Are impossible for me

I cannot build a mountain,
Or catch a rainbow fair,
But let me be what I know best,
A friend who's always there

happy birthday..

It’s my BESTEST FRIEND’s birthday today!

Happy Birthday Ming Ming!
May all your wishes come true and thank you for everything!
You mean the world to me!

Happy Birthday to me...

Am i getting wiser or just older ? Hmmm..

Great Love

Mother Theresa once said, " You can't do great things with little love but you can do little things with great love!"

This seems to be the maxim for a young woman, Norlina Alawi, who gives her unconditional love to her own six children as well as her 10 adopted children.The shadow in their lives is, that some of her adopted children, whom she considers her own, have AIDS and are HIV carriers; others are the children of AIDS patients.

Norlina is the founder and the president of PERNIM(Persatuan Kebajikan Anak Pesakit HIV/AIDS Nurul Iman). As the name suggests, it provides shelter for children with HIV/AIDS.

I had a chance to visit PERNIM two weeks ago. I was excited when my roomate suggested that we go. So, that Sunday, we went to MidValley to have lunch and bought some stuff for the kids. I was still excited. On the way, I was suddenly very nervous to meet the children as I was scared of the consequences. I still have that stigma about people with HIV/AIDS. I was scared to touch them, what more to hug them but they are innocent children. I was in a dilemma.

Things changed when I got there. All of them were waiting for us at the door. When we got into the house we were surrounded by them, we were hugged and kissed. Some just hold our hands and there were some who just smiled from where they were coz they were too weak to move. They are so innocent, so adorable, just like any other children. We spent three hours there. We bathed the children, prepared food for them, and helped some of them with the homework. I felt so welcome, so 'loved' and so 'needed'. It is so fulfilling.

On our way back, none of us said anything but we quietly cried and silently prayed that these children will survive and lead a happy and meaningful life.

It was really an eye opener for me as I've been complaining about how hard my life is and forgetting to thank God for everything that I've got.

Bloody Mary!

It was my time of the month again.. and as usual, i get really emotional, cranky, moody, hungry and all the -y in the world. since he's my bestest pal, he had to face all these.. stupid sms, unanswered phone calls, mood swings. everything was just not right. i was even mad at him coz his cell phone batt when flat! poor guy! while i was nagging at him when he called, suddenly he said, "no wonder god forbid women from praying when u guys r having ur period.. he too can't stand the crankiness! he'll be blamed for everything!" gosh! i was startled for a moment and laughed my lungs out!... i never thought he could come out with that.. most guys, or i would say 200% guys couldn’t even stand me for a minute but he can make a joke out of it.. where is this man from? mars? i don't think so! i think he's from planet-x.. thank god he's my best buddy.. there isn’t anyone like this in this planet earth! and to top it all, he send an sms saying "enjoy it while it last"! How very true!

p/s: hey buddy, i just wanna say THANK YOU in the crankiness manner possible, for always being there for me and put it with all these bloody matters!

Two Bloody Mary please!

one wish...

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling

with anyone other than you.

For you dad..

You were once my one companion . . . you were all that mattered . . . You were once a friend and father - then my world was shattered . . . Wishing you were somehow here again . . . wishing you were somehow near . . . Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed, somehow you would be here . . . Wishing I could hear your voice again . . . knowing that I never would . . . Dreaming of you won' t help me to do all that you dreamed I could . . . Passing bells and sculpted angels, cold and monumental, seem, for you, the wrong companions - you were warm and gentle . . . Too many years fighting back tears . . . Why can't the past just die . . .? Wishing you were somehow here again . . . knowing we must say goodbye . . . Try to forgive . . . teach me to live . . . give me the strength to try . . . No more memories, no more silent tears . . . No more gazing across the wasted years . . . Help me say goodbye.

Air and Angel

Twice or thrice had I loved thee,
Before I knew thy face or name;
So in a voice, so in a shapeless flame,
Angels affect us oft, and worshipped be;
Still when, to where thou wert, I came,
Some lovely glorious nothing I did see,
But since my soul, whose child love is,
Takes limbs of flesh, and else could nothing do,
More subtle than the parent is
Love must not be, but take a body too,
And therefore what thou wert, and who
I bid love ask, and now
That it assume thy body, I allow,
And fix itself in thy lip, eye, and brow.
Whilst thus to ballast love, I thought,
And so more steadily to have gone,
With wares which would sink admiration,
I saw, I had love's pinnace overfraught,
Every thy hair for love to work upon
Is much too much, some fitter must be sought;
For, nor in nothing, nor in things
Extreme, and scatt'ring bright, can love inhere;
Then as an angel, face and wings
Of air, not pure as it, yet pure doth wear,
So thy love may be my love's sphere;
Just such disparity
As is 'twixt air and angels' purity,
'Twixt women's love, and men's will ever be.

-John Donne